Well, it has been again quite some time. Many new developments in my life, in the world and in the life of people across the globe. Saddam Hussein hanged, Killings in Iraq continue, 3000 US military deaths, Serial killer caught in my hometown - Noida, President Ford died and so did the legendary James Brown, genocide in Darfur continues, new racists attacks in the UK unearthed but still New year welcomed by great cheer by all...

The past few days have been tough. Really tough. With not a few but many disappointments. Today, as I write this blog I don't actually know what to write. I want to write about good things like my vacation during the christmas break but I just can't get into that mood. Why? I don't know the answer myself. Is it a bad timing? Yes, it is. Well, that is a nice excuse. The fact is that maybe its something else that is bad and not the timing? Am I going overboard? Maybe. No. Actually, it seems I am. So, should I change something for good? I tried but I failed. Failed just not for changing things. I am halfway on my journey and am at a point of no return. I can't turn back because that will make me wonder about my past years. However, the road ahead is also very dark. I think I am on a wrong track? Did I choose this track myself or was I destined to be on this track? Both actually. You decide. So, actually the crux is that I am in a middle of nowhere. I am on a wrong track where I cant turn back and I cant move forward because its dark. I need a rescue? There is no rescue. To make matters worse, things more complicated I can't even stop now in the middle of the road. Maybe a few years back, I would have stayed at my current location without turning back or without moving forward. But can I now? I wish I can, but I know I can't.

So, I cant turn back, I can move forward, I cant stay and I cant be rescued.