Unified system for MBA Admissions
I was just wondering why can't we have a unified system for MBA Admissions in the US. Every university has its own application, own set of similar essays, we need to send GMAT/TOEFL scores multiple times, arrange transcripts to be sent to each school and so on....the question is - Do we actually need it? Why can't we have a common system where a prospective candidate just needs to send one set of GMAT scores, one set of transcripts and so on?
There can be a common body just like GMAC or ETS which would handle everything. There can be common set of essays (Goals, Leadership, Failures, Ethical Dilemmas, Personal History, Extra Curriculars etc.). Agreed, the WHY XYZ MBA question would need to be drafted for each school the applicant intends to apply - but that should be fairly easy for the applicant - at least all his other essays would be common. So here is how it can work -
1. Applicant registers on the unified website and creates an account.
2. He is shown a screen where he can select the schools he intends to apply. For each school, appropriate fee would be applied.
3. Next, he writes the common essays for all schools and provides the background information like Family Information, Employment information etc. Again, this is common for all schools --> just imagine the amount of effort saved.
4. The applicant can then write the customized essay(s) for each school like the Why XYZ.
5. Two recommendations are submitted, again the same recommendations can be used by all the schools.
6. Once, this is done, this unified body can generate separate pdfs for each scool - complete with all background information, essays (including the customized essays) and recommendations and forward this document (either electronically or paper based) to each school the applicant had checked in Step 2.
I think it just needs a little initiative and will of the schools and can save a lot of trouble for the applicants.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
CEO Traits
I was reading an article about traits required by CEOs where some UoC professors did a research and came out with some surprising conclusions. To set the context right, the complete article can be found at -
Here are five CEO traits that correlate most closely with business success at buyout companies -- and five that score lowest, according to University of Chicago researchers.
I was reading an article about traits required by CEOs where some UoC professors did a research and came out with some surprising conclusions. To set the context right, the complete article can be found at -
http://www-news.uchicago.edu/citations/07/071119.kaplan-wsj.html
Here is a brief summary of the article -Here are five CEO traits that correlate most closely with business success at buyout companies -- and five that score lowest, according to University of Chicago researchers.
Traits that matter...
• Persistence
• Attention to detail
• Efficiency
• Analytical skills
• Setting high standards
...and not so much
• Strong oral communication
• Teamwork
• Flexibility/adaptability
• Enthusiasm
• Listening skillsWell, interesting find. Isn't it. However, I beg to disagree. I think I am sticking to the adage of Chicago GSB - "Challenge Everything!" [Well, I might have got denied two times, but I am still hooked up to the Challenge Everything theme it seems or perhaps I always believed in it?]
What my opinion is that these two set of traits are both important depending upon the type of company a CEO is heading. Not even "type" but I feel the quality of people in the company. If a company is made up of mediocre junta the first set of traits becomes very important. I am assuming the CEO is a "true" leader - analytical, sharp and intelligent. Yes, then it becomes important for him/her to be persistent in his/her efforts, not to get bogged down by initial goof-ups by his employees. It becomes important for him/her to be very attentive to details because there is a high probability that important details have been missed by his staff. Analytical skills are important because of course we need someone to analyze the critical issues and challenges - if the staff is mediocre the CEO has to don the "thinking cap". If he/she does not set high standards, it would be almost impossible to break the shackles of mediocrity. Yes, a CEO in this setup does not require team work - he/she would be wasting his time listening to others in his team who probably can't even think what he/she is thinking. Also, why would he/she need listening skills in this case? Why listen to some crappy suggestions by crappy staff.
On the contrary, if the team is a set of highly talents individuals - the second set becomes more important. You need teamwork and good listening skills because every opinion counts and is valuable. You can not rule in such a setup blindly - collaboration is the key to leverage strengths of every talented individual could make the difference. If you are not flexible or adaptable then it might so happen that due to the CEO's adamant attitude important ideas might never get implemented.
So, I believe that both the sets of qualities are important for CEOs in different settings and blindly saying one set is more important than the other might be injustice to important qualities like oral communication, Teamwork, Flexibility/adaptability, Enthusiasm, Listening skills.
Friday, December 21, 2007
What a waste...
...it was. But first, my sincere Thanks to the people behind the great (pun intended) party! Well, I usually avoid my company's parties, but this perhaps being my last Infosys sponsored party in the US, made me to think - Why not give it a try? To get it straight... the food was simply pathetic! The banquet hall reminded me of the scene of free "temple" meals. But that's fine, it happens.
Then came the more horrendous part. The movie - 'Welcome' was perhaps the most unwelcoming movie I have seen (or I should say seen it partially). I don't care what rediff is saying about the movie or whether it is breaking any record in the UK! For me, it simply didn't work. The humor, the least I can say was stupid, dumb ass and stinky! Yeah, I know many people might have actually enjoyed it but well, this is my blog and I have the last word. I am sad that I wasted a few precious hours but glad that I was able to save some!
...it was. But first, my sincere Thanks to the people behind the great (pun intended) party! Well, I usually avoid my company's parties, but this perhaps being my last Infosys sponsored party in the US, made me to think - Why not give it a try? To get it straight... the food was simply pathetic! The banquet hall reminded me of the scene of free "temple" meals. But that's fine, it happens.
Then came the more horrendous part. The movie - 'Welcome' was perhaps the most unwelcoming movie I have seen (or I should say seen it partially). I don't care what rediff is saying about the movie or whether it is breaking any record in the UK! For me, it simply didn't work. The humor, the least I can say was stupid, dumb ass and stinky! Yeah, I know many people might have actually enjoyed it but well, this is my blog and I have the last word. I am sad that I wasted a few precious hours but glad that I was able to save some!
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
What is wrong with Infosys? Challenges ahead...
Attracting Talent
This is the biggest challenge faced by Infosys today. Infosys needs a "brand" revamp with respect to its prospective workforce. The competition from other companies is immense and people scout for better opportunities, better salaries and better brand name. In fact, this challenge is not just limited to Infosys but can be safely extended to other Indian IT companies like TCS, Wipro and the likes. The biggest testament to this fact was that in my own college, TCS was not invited for campus placements this time. Reason - they were paying too low and with McKinsey and other top companies recruiting from the college you can imagine the opportunities available today.
Retaining Talent
This point is closely linked to the above point but there is a fundamental difference. I do not buy the idea of "Attracting and Retaining Talent" as the single biggest challenge. These are two separate issues and they need to be tackled independently. I can give an insider's view on this. As I see it, Infosys has lost the personal touch, it no more cares for its employees as it used to do some 5-7 years back perhaps. Ground reality is that an "individual" has been replaced by the term "resource"...literally. Why should an employee pay out of his own pocket for the hotel or the cab if he is relocating to a new location? How can a company expect an employee to find an accommodation right from the first day in the US if the only prior exposure to US to that employee has been perhaps through Hollywood movies, FRIENDS and Sienfield? Agreed, if the salary which an employee was getting was amongst the highest in the industry no one would ever complain, but this is also far from reality with Infosys salaries just hovering around the industry "average". Retaining talent is definitely a challenge and nothing less than a revolution is required to change some of the policies which are negatively impacting the employee morale.
Training Talent
Well, "Talent" seems to be the buzzword. I can't help it. If a company feels that passing a mandate for compulsory certifications is good enough, something is terribly wrong. I cleared the "technical" certification last time and I admit blatantly, I don't know a word. I have seen this company grow from 20,000 employees to its present with more than 80,000 employees and I have personally witnessed the drop in the quality of work being produced. OK, this is related to my first argument about hiring talent, we are working on it but we also have to work on training the existing talent which we have. Knowing the fact that we might not be attracting the best, raises the criticality of this point to unimaginable levels. Basic processes, professional communication and skills like these can be taught. Infosys has supposedly one of the best training plans, but have those training centers become mere assembly lines where there is the concept of one size fits all? I am not sure, but anecdotal evidence says that this might be the case. There has to be a better feedback mechanism for employees and a careful monitoring by the HR department at an individual level to help the employees become competitive and fit to deal with global challenges.
"Phony" Processes
I was once very proud of Infosys's strong processes and I would not lie - I still am! But, a part of me also believes that Infosys sometimes has to carry the burden of its own processes - which are becoming more and more rigid with less flexibility for customizations. Again, we need to realize they a "One Size Fits All" approach will not keep us in the game for too long! Just a very small example which is on top of my mind because we are currently grappling with it. If some stuff needs to be sent from the client location to an offshore Infosys office, common sense would dictate that it would be the sender of the goods who would be more concerned about the documentation. Well, as expected, Infosys had a multiple page document outlining the policies and procedures for such a process. Agreed, it is required for a company as large in scale as Infosys, I won't argue about that. But then being picky with the each and every detail in your policy is where the trouble starts. What if the client (who is sending the stuff) has a different policy and there is a conflict? Infosys will demand evidence, emails, client confirmation, client policy documents blah blah before it waives a simple rule in it's policies regarding loaned hardware. In the process, we have lost vital days, frustrated the client, and wasted important effort which could have been put to good use otherwise. Do we actually need such tight processes? Are we under matured? In fact, I think we have over matured and we need to loosen a bit.
Middle Management Crisis
I just can't emphasize how the middle management is negatively impacting the grand vision which NRN had for Infosys. Every manager in the company seems to be having a personal agenda which may or may not be aligned to Infosys's vision. How true it is - An employee does not leaves a company, he leaves his manager! We need to strengthen the middle management, infuse some fresh ideas and new breed of managers who can actually see beyond their limited scope of work. Instead of micromanaging they need to act as visionaries, motivators and lead by example for the younger generation. If you are in a position where you can impact your team member's career, it is your responsibility and a tacit commitment that you will do your best to ensure that the talented individuals (who are fast becoming a rarity) are identified and their career is well planned. They are given equal growth opportunities and the high performance work ethic is enforced. Promotions are not based on mere number of years of work experience and pre conceived notions are not formed about an individual by seeing how much experience he has.
I feel, these are just some of the challenges faced by Infosys today and most of these would be applicable to any other Indian IT services company also. These are solely my personal views and what I feel and I might be wrong. I would welcome any comments if you have any.
Attracting Talent
This is the biggest challenge faced by Infosys today. Infosys needs a "brand" revamp with respect to its prospective workforce. The competition from other companies is immense and people scout for better opportunities, better salaries and better brand name. In fact, this challenge is not just limited to Infosys but can be safely extended to other Indian IT companies like TCS, Wipro and the likes. The biggest testament to this fact was that in my own college, TCS was not invited for campus placements this time. Reason - they were paying too low and with McKinsey and other top companies recruiting from the college you can imagine the opportunities available today.
Retaining Talent
This point is closely linked to the above point but there is a fundamental difference. I do not buy the idea of "Attracting and Retaining Talent" as the single biggest challenge. These are two separate issues and they need to be tackled independently. I can give an insider's view on this. As I see it, Infosys has lost the personal touch, it no more cares for its employees as it used to do some 5-7 years back perhaps. Ground reality is that an "individual" has been replaced by the term "resource"...literally. Why should an employee pay out of his own pocket for the hotel or the cab if he is relocating to a new location? How can a company expect an employee to find an accommodation right from the first day in the US if the only prior exposure to US to that employee has been perhaps through Hollywood movies, FRIENDS and Sienfield? Agreed, if the salary which an employee was getting was amongst the highest in the industry no one would ever complain, but this is also far from reality with Infosys salaries just hovering around the industry "average". Retaining talent is definitely a challenge and nothing less than a revolution is required to change some of the policies which are negatively impacting the employee morale.
Training Talent
Well, "Talent" seems to be the buzzword. I can't help it. If a company feels that passing a mandate for compulsory certifications is good enough, something is terribly wrong. I cleared the "technical" certification last time and I admit blatantly, I don't know a word. I have seen this company grow from 20,000 employees to its present with more than 80,000 employees and I have personally witnessed the drop in the quality of work being produced. OK, this is related to my first argument about hiring talent, we are working on it but we also have to work on training the existing talent which we have. Knowing the fact that we might not be attracting the best, raises the criticality of this point to unimaginable levels. Basic processes, professional communication and skills like these can be taught. Infosys has supposedly one of the best training plans, but have those training centers become mere assembly lines where there is the concept of one size fits all? I am not sure, but anecdotal evidence says that this might be the case. There has to be a better feedback mechanism for employees and a careful monitoring by the HR department at an individual level to help the employees become competitive and fit to deal with global challenges.
"Phony" Processes
I was once very proud of Infosys's strong processes and I would not lie - I still am! But, a part of me also believes that Infosys sometimes has to carry the burden of its own processes - which are becoming more and more rigid with less flexibility for customizations. Again, we need to realize they a "One Size Fits All" approach will not keep us in the game for too long! Just a very small example which is on top of my mind because we are currently grappling with it. If some stuff needs to be sent from the client location to an offshore Infosys office, common sense would dictate that it would be the sender of the goods who would be more concerned about the documentation. Well, as expected, Infosys had a multiple page document outlining the policies and procedures for such a process. Agreed, it is required for a company as large in scale as Infosys, I won't argue about that. But then being picky with the each and every detail in your policy is where the trouble starts. What if the client (who is sending the stuff) has a different policy and there is a conflict? Infosys will demand evidence, emails, client confirmation, client policy documents blah blah before it waives a simple rule in it's policies regarding loaned hardware. In the process, we have lost vital days, frustrated the client, and wasted important effort which could have been put to good use otherwise. Do we actually need such tight processes? Are we under matured? In fact, I think we have over matured and we need to loosen a bit.
Middle Management Crisis
I just can't emphasize how the middle management is negatively impacting the grand vision which NRN had for Infosys. Every manager in the company seems to be having a personal agenda which may or may not be aligned to Infosys's vision. How true it is - An employee does not leaves a company, he leaves his manager! We need to strengthen the middle management, infuse some fresh ideas and new breed of managers who can actually see beyond their limited scope of work. Instead of micromanaging they need to act as visionaries, motivators and lead by example for the younger generation. If you are in a position where you can impact your team member's career, it is your responsibility and a tacit commitment that you will do your best to ensure that the talented individuals (who are fast becoming a rarity) are identified and their career is well planned. They are given equal growth opportunities and the high performance work ethic is enforced. Promotions are not based on mere number of years of work experience and pre conceived notions are not formed about an individual by seeing how much experience he has.
I feel, these are just some of the challenges faced by Infosys today and most of these would be applicable to any other Indian IT services company also. These are solely my personal views and what I feel and I might be wrong. I would welcome any comments if you have any.
Saturday, December 01, 2007
And they said "Quotas" were abolished in India...
General knowledge and common hearsay makes us believe that the dreaded Quota System has been abolished in India. I urge you to re-think. Well, to make things easier here is a hint: Supposedly, the best B-School in India does not believe in a "Free Market" policy. Surprised? Read On.
I just got to know an interesting policy of Indian School of Business or ISB, Hyderabad. This policy is concerning the "favors" granted to "The Firm" - McKinsey and Co. As surprising as it may seem - a student can not be offered an employment offer by any other company unless McKinsey completes it round of placement on Day Zero and declares its result. Now, what does that mean? That means that McKiney wants all ISB students to be "available" when they come to campus for recruitment.
Now picture this, I am a student (hypothetical) who does not want to go into McKinsey or into Consulting. Why should I wait till it completes its recruitment process? Isn't there something terribly wrong . Agreed, McKinsey was behind creating this great school but then should it be granted such special favors? I think this is totally against the Free Market philosophy. I was surprised to know that a company as respected as McKinsey is engaging is such acts. In fact, even without this "quota" students would be attracted to this company and it would be one of the first choices for students who are interested in making a career in the "exciting" field of consulting. Having such policies only takes the sheen away not only from ISB but also from McKinsey itself.
I can go on and on analyzing this but I would end my post as I believe I have provided enough fodder for the readers to think on their own whether the quota system which plagued India a few decades ago has really been abolished?
General knowledge and common hearsay makes us believe that the dreaded Quota System has been abolished in India. I urge you to re-think. Well, to make things easier here is a hint: Supposedly, the best B-School in India does not believe in a "Free Market" policy. Surprised? Read On.
I just got to know an interesting policy of Indian School of Business or ISB, Hyderabad. This policy is concerning the "favors" granted to "The Firm" - McKinsey and Co. As surprising as it may seem - a student can not be offered an employment offer by any other company unless McKinsey completes it round of placement on Day Zero and declares its result. Now, what does that mean? That means that McKiney wants all ISB students to be "available" when they come to campus for recruitment.
Now picture this, I am a student (hypothetical) who does not want to go into McKinsey or into Consulting. Why should I wait till it completes its recruitment process? Isn't there something terribly wrong . Agreed, McKinsey was behind creating this great school but then should it be granted such special favors? I think this is totally against the Free Market philosophy. I was surprised to know that a company as respected as McKinsey is engaging is such acts. In fact, even without this "quota" students would be attracted to this company and it would be one of the first choices for students who are interested in making a career in the "exciting" field of consulting. Having such policies only takes the sheen away not only from ISB but also from McKinsey itself.
I can go on and on analyzing this but I would end my post as I believe I have provided enough fodder for the readers to think on their own whether the quota system which plagued India a few decades ago has really been abolished?
Comfort Zone
Unfortunately, this spark of desire can be short lived as people gradually fall back into their comfort zones and never fully realize their potential or attain their dreams. Most people like to plan what they are going to do, as its fun and motivating to let your mind dream about changes you want to make with your life. However, without consistent actions on these plans and positive thoughts they will stay nothing more than just dreams?
Today I will write about a few reasons why we fall into our comfort zone and How to Break out Of Your Comfort Zone! After reading my post I hope each one of us would be more aware of not slipping into their comfort zones and how to get out of it.
Incorrect feelings and beliefs that you're already doing well.
- Feeling that you're already achieved amazing great results keeps you in your comfort zone if you stop shooting for more.
- Now I'm not saying that admiring and being proud of your achievements is a bad thing, looking back at how far you've come is great motivating factor. But, if doing so takes away your hunger to reach new levels then it is a problem.
- The trick is to never be satisfied, there is always more to achieve. Never believe that you have reached your full potential in terms of size and strength.
- After the fun of dreaming about what you want to achieve you can sometimes be faced with the daunting task of actually trying to make it a reality.
- If you don't believe that you can achieve your goals you've got little chance that you will make them happen.
- You need to be fully aware of how you're presently doing. Self-assessment can be hard to do, no one likes to put him or herself down or admit their lack of commitment.
- Being honest with yourself will reap much more rewards than sticking in your comfort zone and pretending that you're doing fine and that someday things will start to click into place.
- You have to make results happen, they never happen by chance or mistake.
- I know this sounds weird, but when it comes to breaking your comfort zones your fear of success can be stronger than your fear of failure.
- People can actually sabotage themselves from reaching their full potential because that means actually breaking out of their comfort zone and standing in new, uncharted territory.
- Nelson Mandela talked about fear of success in one of his speeches: 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
So, How to Break Out Of Your Comfort Zone?
It’s always hard to step out of your comfort zone, but when you do get to step out of it, you definitely improve yourself.
The first step to break out of your comfort zone is conquering fear.
- We all fear different things and fear is one of the strongest human emotions. But when we overcome those fears, well our comfort zone gets bigger and expands, thus increasing our self-confidence and self-esteem.
- This certainly doesn’t mean jumping in and making blind decisions. To expand your comfort zone you have to take calculated risks, stop procrastinating, and it’ll expand. And as it expands, you will most probably feel better, and get more things done in less time.
Also, it is important to change your mind-set.
- Become an achiever and go-getter, rather than a procrastinator and an excuse maker. Don't view challenges negatively but view them as stepping stones that will propel the quality of your life forward and setting the tone for future achievements.
- When you have something to do, do it, even if you’re not sure what will come out of it, for example, if you have a tough phone call to make, well do it, you’ll feel better after the phone call than before.
Do things you don’t do really often, or haven’t done before.
- You want to gain more knowledge and more experience, so get involved, take whatever courses, hang out with people you respect and that have interesting conversations.
- Remember that if you had bad experiences in the past, chances are the same thing won’t happen again, but you won’t know if you don’t try it again.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
When I published my post about the "bloggers" who just have one or two post in their blogs but still post their blogsites proudly on social networking sites, I never realized I would become one of them, or at least be on the verge of being "branded" one of them. I would quote an advertisement, I don't remember of which company - "Life comes at you really fast". I would say the past couple of months is a testament to this statement.
Readers might think I had taken a break from writing. Well, on the contrary it was "writing" that had kept me away from my blog for so long. I had been writing each and every day of my life since my last post. Introspection, research, reviews, re-reviews, edits, proof reads these had become buzz words. Finally, I got some respite from all of this (at least for a few days) but things have started to worsen again, worsen I would say for good maybe. Time will tell that.
I have been to a couple of places too! Of course, I can I not travel. Right? Wrong. I traveled but my motivation for travel for different this time. Visiting B-Schools. It was good though as I got to meet many of my friends too! Catching up with old friends in North Carolina or Chicago was definitely the highlight of the trip. And of course, how can I not forget the Mustang, the pullover due to over speeding, the cold winds in Chicago, the death of my laptop and its miraculous re-birth. Wow! I can have a single blog dedicated to each of these. But, I will save that for another time (and you know that time would probably not come soon).
I would also like to mention Halloween - not because of anything else but because I had a surprise old friend knocking on my door! It was great to reconnect with people I thought I was totally out of touch with. Also, with 5 Stellas down my throat, it couldn't have been better. Anyhow, Halloween is history and Thanksgiving is present. Christmas would be future. Lol. Bad attempt to evoke humor. I guess, let me go back to the present. I don't know what is wrong with me and Thanksgiving? This is my third T'giving and this is the third time I am at home for 4 f$%$# days. But, no complaints. It has been my choice and I am enjoying every minute of this welcome break. I am thankful that I also got the time to re-visit my blog. Signing off from my lazy bed...
Readers might think I had taken a break from writing. Well, on the contrary it was "writing" that had kept me away from my blog for so long. I had been writing each and every day of my life since my last post. Introspection, research, reviews, re-reviews, edits, proof reads these had become buzz words. Finally, I got some respite from all of this (at least for a few days) but things have started to worsen again, worsen I would say for good maybe. Time will tell that.
I have been to a couple of places too! Of course, I can I not travel. Right? Wrong. I traveled but my motivation for travel for different this time. Visiting B-Schools. It was good though as I got to meet many of my friends too! Catching up with old friends in North Carolina or Chicago was definitely the highlight of the trip. And of course, how can I not forget the Mustang, the pullover due to over speeding, the cold winds in Chicago, the death of my laptop and its miraculous re-birth. Wow! I can have a single blog dedicated to each of these. But, I will save that for another time (and you know that time would probably not come soon).
I would also like to mention Halloween - not because of anything else but because I had a surprise old friend knocking on my door! It was great to reconnect with people I thought I was totally out of touch with. Also, with 5 Stellas down my throat, it couldn't have been better. Anyhow, Halloween is history and Thanksgiving is present. Christmas would be future. Lol. Bad attempt to evoke humor. I guess, let me go back to the present. I don't know what is wrong with me and Thanksgiving? This is my third T'giving and this is the third time I am at home for 4 f$%$# days. But, no complaints. It has been my choice and I am enjoying every minute of this welcome break. I am thankful that I also got the time to re-visit my blog. Signing off from my lazy bed...
Friday, August 31, 2007
I did not see when did I last wrote my blog or even visited it. But today is different. I am hard pressed on time but still I want to write. I have been writing all throughout not on any blog but otherwise. It is a long weekend here and I was just looking back at the days that have passed by. When I came to US I had a lot of fun initially. Long weekends were planned months in advance, normal weekends were planned days in advance, weekdays were full of energy and enthusiasm. Today I think a 3 day weekend is more of a burden than anything else. Change happens sometimes for good sometimes for I guess not so good. Anyhow, this is life.
Friday, June 15, 2007
My first post, post my birthday. In one of my earlier post I was a critic - critic of people who are not regular with their blogs. Have I become one of them? No.
Anyhow, life is moving on or should I say dragging on. Yeah, that's perhaps the right word. I am dragging it. But one thing is sure. Change is so fast here that the life you are dragging keeps changing every moment. I am a Toastmaster now. The experience has been enjoyable so far. It gives you a feeling of satisfaction that you are doing something good for yourself. Perhaps, that's the only thing that is helping me improve as a person under current situation. My roommate is again going back to India, how many people would I see off at the airport before somebody sees me off? Oh god! Why does my blog posts always go into a question mode? Yet another question. Lol.
Anyhow, life is moving on or should I say dragging on. Yeah, that's perhaps the right word. I am dragging it. But one thing is sure. Change is so fast here that the life you are dragging keeps changing every moment. I am a Toastmaster now. The experience has been enjoyable so far. It gives you a feeling of satisfaction that you are doing something good for yourself. Perhaps, that's the only thing that is helping me improve as a person under current situation. My roommate is again going back to India, how many people would I see off at the airport before somebody sees me off? Oh god! Why does my blog posts always go into a question mode? Yet another question. Lol.
Friday, April 20, 2007
20th April 2007
Well, I just thought of writing something today. Something. So, I thought why not just look back at the year that just went by. What was I doing 1 year back? I had hope. I still have hope. I was thinking of what strategy to apply to have a better life and I am still strategizing. I wanted to go for a vacation and I still do. So, what has changed? A lot. 365 days have passed. I have grown older, more mature, more patient and more fit to face the challenges of this world. Is it? Maybe...No, surely.
The last year has been a roller coaster ride. It was a year of self introspection. Not that I wanted to self introspect, but I had to. I was forced to so as to say :-) It was a year of travel, of seeing new places and making new connections. It was not a great year as far as my personal or professional accomplishments are concerned but then that's how it is. I had a few setbacks or in fact more than just a "few". I had many. But, I have learnt from them and I hope to have a better year ahead.
Well, I just thought of writing something today. Something. So, I thought why not just look back at the year that just went by. What was I doing 1 year back? I had hope. I still have hope. I was thinking of what strategy to apply to have a better life and I am still strategizing. I wanted to go for a vacation and I still do. So, what has changed? A lot. 365 days have passed. I have grown older, more mature, more patient and more fit to face the challenges of this world. Is it? Maybe...No, surely.
The last year has been a roller coaster ride. It was a year of self introspection. Not that I wanted to self introspect, but I had to. I was forced to so as to say :-) It was a year of travel, of seeing new places and making new connections. It was not a great year as far as my personal or professional accomplishments are concerned but then that's how it is. I had a few setbacks or in fact more than just a "few". I had many. But, I have learnt from them and I hope to have a better year ahead.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
The City
New York. April 6 - April 10 2007. 4 days. 0 sight seeing. 1 bachelors party. 12 scotch. 3 Tequilas. Something else? I don't remember, I was drunk.
Well, what a visit. It was relaxed. Relaxed because I did not go to New York to see places. Been There Done That. I met with my cousin and it was awesome. Well, good Indian food for so many days, relaxed home environment (Thank god I was saved of the dingy New York motels) and lots of fun. It was simply awesome. It also happened to be my first bachelors party. Obviously, it was not mine but of one of my very close friends. We really rocked in the party. Never had so much fun with people I had just met that day. It was super! Want details of the party, put a comment with your mail id ;-) Rest censored.
I also got a chance to visit NYU Stern and I would say that the school was impressive. Although, I expected more out of the visit but then somehow it didn't work that well as I had expected it to be. But nonetheless no complaints. And yes, how can I forget the get together with my school buddys. Meeting them after 8 years. It was great to catch upon stuff. The good old school days.
All in all it was an awesome trip. emmotrable one. Oops I meant "Memorable" one :-)
New York. April 6 - April 10 2007. 4 days. 0 sight seeing. 1 bachelors party. 12 scotch. 3 Tequilas. Something else? I don't remember, I was drunk.
Well, what a visit. It was relaxed. Relaxed because I did not go to New York to see places. Been There Done That. I met with my cousin and it was awesome. Well, good Indian food for so many days, relaxed home environment (Thank god I was saved of the dingy New York motels) and lots of fun. It was simply awesome. It also happened to be my first bachelors party. Obviously, it was not mine but of one of my very close friends. We really rocked in the party. Never had so much fun with people I had just met that day. It was super! Want details of the party, put a comment with your mail id ;-) Rest censored.
I also got a chance to visit NYU Stern and I would say that the school was impressive. Although, I expected more out of the visit but then somehow it didn't work that well as I had expected it to be. But nonetheless no complaints. And yes, how can I forget the get together with my school buddys. Meeting them after 8 years. It was great to catch upon stuff. The good old school days.
All in all it was an awesome trip. emmotrable one. Oops I meant "Memorable" one :-)
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Bad flying…
“Home, Home again. I like to be here when I can...”
Whoa! I had a grilling time. It all started in Indianapolis when I (Don’t know why) assumed that I was flying Continental Airlines though actually it was United. Well, I stood in the line of Continental for 15 minutes and when I got to the ticketing counter it threw an error telling that I don’t have a reservation. (Thankfully it was a self check in counter and thus saved me from major embarrassment). I then scrambled through my documents inside my bag and checked. Man! It was United. WTF. I rushed to the united counter which was the farthest from where I was standing. I somehow managed to reach the counter with my heavy bags and there I saw a big line. The time was 6:05 PM and my flight departure time was 6:45PM. Luckily, the lady at the counter called that anyone for this flight should come forward immediately bypassing the line! Thank God I said. Got myself checked in, rushed through the security and finally when I arrived at the Gate the flight was late by 1 hr! Fcuk. I had a connection in Chicago and this meant that I would be in a very tight spot. I asked the lady at the counter whether I am safe and she said that I am OK and I would have to hurry a bit at Chicago running from Gate C22 to B19.
At that point of time I realized that I was hungry. Went to a To-go coffee shop and ordered a chicken sandwich. But as I was feeling very luck that day (pun intended) the chicken sandwich was over. The person in front of me took the last sandwich from the fridge. I was thanklessly refunded my money. I bought a small packet of chips and waited for my flight looking at the weatch every 5 mins. Finally, the fight came afte 1.5 hours (1 hour was the scheduled delay and around half hour was the unscheduled one). We boarded the plane but alas our luggage were still on the way. We waited on the tarmac for 20 more mins after boarding for the luggage to arrive. Well, at that point it was clear that I would miss my connecting flight from Chicago. I was already making plans of going to Chicago downtown during the night and catching with few of my friends. To be very frank, a part of my heart was saying “Wow! That’s a free Chicago vacation for a few hours”, but my other part and the body was saying “ Dude, you gotta reach home take some rest and get ready to shift your house the next day”.
But nothing could be done. I was sure to miss my connection so that was it. We reached Chicago at 8:25, came out of the plane by 8:35 and I headed straight to the monitors to check the status of my connecting flight. Whew! It was delayed as well. From 8:15 to 8:50. I checked my watch. 8:40. So that leaves me with less than 10 mins. I started running. It was long. Really long. I ran with my heavy hand luggage. It was the most tiresome run. Empty stomach, juggling between people, avoiding the airport trolleys. Shit! It was bad and I finally reached my gate a few mins to spare. Drank some water and finally boarded the plane. Kept my fingers crossed for the rest of my journey and thankfully it was pretty uneventful. Slept for sometime, saw a movie, ate pretzels, drank juice and reached Phoenix! Was driven back home by a friend and slept. Finally, I remembered the lines from this famous Floyd song –
At that point of time I realized that I was hungry. Went to a To-go coffee shop and ordered a chicken sandwich. But as I was feeling very luck that day (pun intended) the chicken sandwich was over. The person in front of me took the last sandwich from the fridge. I was thanklessly refunded my money. I bought a small packet of chips and waited for my flight looking at the weatch every 5 mins. Finally, the fight came afte 1.5 hours (1 hour was the scheduled delay and around half hour was the unscheduled one). We boarded the plane but alas our luggage were still on the way. We waited on the tarmac for 20 more mins after boarding for the luggage to arrive. Well, at that point it was clear that I would miss my connecting flight from Chicago. I was already making plans of going to Chicago downtown during the night and catching with few of my friends. To be very frank, a part of my heart was saying “Wow! That’s a free Chicago vacation for a few hours”, but my other part and the body was saying “ Dude, you gotta reach home take some rest and get ready to shift your house the next day”.
But nothing could be done. I was sure to miss my connection so that was it. We reached Chicago at 8:25, came out of the plane by 8:35 and I headed straight to the monitors to check the status of my connecting flight. Whew! It was delayed as well. From 8:15 to 8:50. I checked my watch. 8:40. So that leaves me with less than 10 mins. I started running. It was long. Really long. I ran with my heavy hand luggage. It was the most tiresome run. Empty stomach, juggling between people, avoiding the airport trolleys. Shit! It was bad and I finally reached my gate a few mins to spare. Drank some water and finally boarded the plane. Kept my fingers crossed for the rest of my journey and thankfully it was pretty uneventful. Slept for sometime, saw a movie, ate pretzels, drank juice and reached Phoenix! Was driven back home by a friend and slept. Finally, I remembered the lines from this famous Floyd song –
“Home, Home again. I like to be here when I can...”
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Double Standards
"In accordance with [name deleted] University policy, [name deleted] Business School does not discriminate against any person on the basis of race, color, sex, sexual orientation, gender identity, religion, age, national or ethnic origin, political beliefs, veteran status, or handicap in admission to, access to, treatment in, or employment in its programs and activities."
I fail to understand, why does these B Schools proudly display such non discriminatory statements on their websites and brochures when they also know it is not true. Yes, discrimination is done at every stage in the admissions process, under a newly coined termed called "Diversity". For maintaining, this so called diversity, doesn't the B-Schools all across the globe discrimination on the basis of all the above parameters. I personally have been a victim of this discrimination and I can now clearly see behind the closed doors and read between the lines. My question is if discrimination is being done, why doesn't the schools admit it? Why maintain such double standards?
I will leave this entry open ended with this question and I can do nothing except perhaps a big laugh whenever I would see this non discriminatory sentence again.
"In accordance with [name deleted] University policy, [name deleted] Business School does not discriminate against any person on the basis of race, color, sex, sexual orientation, gender identity, religion, age, national or ethnic origin, political beliefs, veteran status, or handicap in admission to, access to, treatment in, or employment in its programs and activities."
I fail to understand, why does these B Schools proudly display such non discriminatory statements on their websites and brochures when they also know it is not true. Yes, discrimination is done at every stage in the admissions process, under a newly coined termed called "Diversity". For maintaining, this so called diversity, doesn't the B-Schools all across the globe discrimination on the basis of all the above parameters. I personally have been a victim of this discrimination and I can now clearly see behind the closed doors and read between the lines. My question is if discrimination is being done, why doesn't the schools admit it? Why maintain such double standards?
I will leave this entry open ended with this question and I can do nothing except perhaps a big laugh whenever I would see this non discriminatory sentence again.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Life is changing. It changes every moment. There have been many developments and many more to come. I am still waiting. This wait looks forever. I read somewhere - "Dates in the calendar and closer than they appear". For me it looks like it is acting in a reverse way. It is still March and I see no respite till May. Frustrating. I am very patient by nature but this is the ultimate test of my patience. In the meanwhile I have a busy month coming ahead. New York. Indiana. Shifting. Project scheduled to start in full steam. There are so many things to write but I don't want to write everything....
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I should have a heading for my blogs
Don't worry, the above heading is totally unrelated to what I am going to write today. I just included a heading since I got a feedback to do so. Well, so I though lets do it for the fun of it. Also, I am writing this blog a little embarrassed since just in my previous post I had grandly criticized bloggers who were not regular with their blogs and look if it would have been a few more days I might have fallen into that category?
Well, there have been many personal developments but I would like to talk about a few things which are on my mind these days. The first one is the medias obsession with Anna Nicole Smith. I fail to understand why is she being given so much airtime? PrimeTime CNN is full with news about Anna Nicole. The reporters make every ditch attempt to interview anybody vaguely related to her, news channel covering the court room drama and then having long discussions about it. Why? I am sure there would be many such dramas happening across courtrooms in the country. Why doesn't it capture the interest of media? And more importantly, are the people watching the news channel actually interested to know about where Anna Nicole would be buried or who would get the authority over her baby? My god! I can't believe that people are so interested in such personal matters of people not even distantly acquainted with them. Anyhow, I think I have given enough of my precious time to this topic. Period.
Another interesting thing which is catching my attention is the way Cisco is trying to change its image from a mundane networking company specializing in routers and switches to a more humane touch with its newly launched propaganda of 'The Human Network'. I like the concept and the ad campaigns and the way Cisco is projecting the human network. People know about companies like Apple, Intel but when it comes to Cisco there is not much awareness even it definitely has played a major role in connecting people. Way to go.
There are other things on my mind but the time is running short. There are many things to be taken care of and I promise I would be back very soon.
Don't worry, the above heading is totally unrelated to what I am going to write today. I just included a heading since I got a feedback to do so. Well, so I though lets do it for the fun of it. Also, I am writing this blog a little embarrassed since just in my previous post I had grandly criticized bloggers who were not regular with their blogs and look if it would have been a few more days I might have fallen into that category?
Well, there have been many personal developments but I would like to talk about a few things which are on my mind these days. The first one is the medias obsession with Anna Nicole Smith. I fail to understand why is she being given so much airtime? PrimeTime CNN is full with news about Anna Nicole. The reporters make every ditch attempt to interview anybody vaguely related to her, news channel covering the court room drama and then having long discussions about it. Why? I am sure there would be many such dramas happening across courtrooms in the country. Why doesn't it capture the interest of media? And more importantly, are the people watching the news channel actually interested to know about where Anna Nicole would be buried or who would get the authority over her baby? My god! I can't believe that people are so interested in such personal matters of people not even distantly acquainted with them. Anyhow, I think I have given enough of my precious time to this topic. Period.
Another interesting thing which is catching my attention is the way Cisco is trying to change its image from a mundane networking company specializing in routers and switches to a more humane touch with its newly launched propaganda of 'The Human Network'. I like the concept and the ad campaigns and the way Cisco is projecting the human network. People know about companies like Apple, Intel but when it comes to Cisco there is not much awareness even it definitely has played a major role in connecting people. Way to go.
There are other things on my mind but the time is running short. There are many things to be taken care of and I promise I would be back very soon.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines...
There are countless blogs on the net which have just a few entries or entries written months back or empty blogs...I get reminded of the above lines from the song 'Time' by none other than Pink Floyd on seeing such blogs. And to top it all, people have their blog links proudly publicised on their orkut accounts, web pages, chat messages and where not. I fail to understand why do people publicize their half hearted attempts. I can agree to the fact that maybe due to shortage of time or other priorities in life or maybe just due to lack of interest/ideas people do not continue with their blogs, but having these links displayed publicly and fooling the innocent junta to go visit such blogs is just not required. I feel that people open their blog site with much fanfare just to get onto the bandwagon, everybody is doing it so will I, but never do they introspect as to whether they would genuinely enjoy writing a blog? Whether they really want to write a blog or is it just die to peer pressure that they want to have a blog site or maybe just to be fashionable?
Anyhow, I was observing this phenomena of empty blogs for quite long but my patience was over today when I visited three blogs in 5 minutes and two of them had just one entry and one had a couple with the last entry done some 9 months ago....anyhow my best wishes with all the bloggers....I wish they would someday realize this and either delete their blogs or at least delete the links to their blog site from public places. Amen!
There are countless blogs on the net which have just a few entries or entries written months back or empty blogs...I get reminded of the above lines from the song 'Time' by none other than Pink Floyd on seeing such blogs. And to top it all, people have their blog links proudly publicised on their orkut accounts, web pages, chat messages and where not. I fail to understand why do people publicize their half hearted attempts. I can agree to the fact that maybe due to shortage of time or other priorities in life or maybe just due to lack of interest/ideas people do not continue with their blogs, but having these links displayed publicly and fooling the innocent junta to go visit such blogs is just not required. I feel that people open their blog site with much fanfare just to get onto the bandwagon, everybody is doing it so will I, but never do they introspect as to whether they would genuinely enjoy writing a blog? Whether they really want to write a blog or is it just die to peer pressure that they want to have a blog site or maybe just to be fashionable?
Anyhow, I was observing this phenomena of empty blogs for quite long but my patience was over today when I visited three blogs in 5 minutes and two of them had just one entry and one had a couple with the last entry done some 9 months ago....anyhow my best wishes with all the bloggers....I wish they would someday realize this and either delete their blogs or at least delete the links to their blog site from public places. Amen!
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Zion/Bryce and Vegas baby !!!
So here goes the trip log for the trip that earned me my first driving ticket in the US. Well, that is a pessimistic start but I actually do not intend to sound negative here because the trip was simply fabulous. Yes, it was and you will come to know why it was so. To start with I was not at all enthusiastic about the trip which we had conceived long ago. The reason behind my not being gung ho about the trip was mainly due to the tough times I was going through. I was not sure as to how would I enjoy on the trip with so many things on my mind. However, I was wrong. The trip helped me to do away with my worries for at least a few days and I came back feeling better and rejuvenated (only to go back to the same mode a few days later ;-)
Enough of history surrounding the trip and now back to the real meat. We started on the Friday before Christmas day and rented a Pontiac G6 coupe with plush leather interiors. It was an amazing car and we zipped past straight to Page. The drive was comfortable and we had our dinner at Page. The drive from Page to the entrance of Zion was a little eerie but I followed a car for most of the time so that we had some company on the dark road. However, soon we were to experience a 15 mile drive which we had and wish never would have to encounter in future. We had to cross the Zion National Park in order to reach our hotel in Springdale, UT. It was already pretty late at night and it was dark and to top it all it was cold and little icy. We were all alone on a undivided curvy road. But, nothing could be done. We never anticipated that it would be such and we headed straight to the hotel. There was nobody except a few deers who gave us a little company on the way and luckily didn't get hurt. But, I would say it was one of the most longest drives I have ever been through. Those 30 mins or so were really an experience :-)
Finally, I would say all is well that ends well. We reached our hotel safely, were greeted by a "Desi" and slept for the night only to see a beautiful, sunny morning the next day. The next morning was simply awesome. We got our national park permit made and had a really heavy but good breakfast, did some shopping in the mart and finally headed to the scenic drive inside the Zion National Park. We were looking forward to trek in the park and so we did. We went to a few hikes but thanks to my Nike Sneakers couldn't take on the real hard hikes since my shoes would not allow me to indulge in such extravagance. I slipped and slipped and slipped over the icy paths and so finally decided to be safe and play safe and only ventured on the "Safe" hikes. But I think my shoes saved us from a lot of trouble later because for us even the "Easy" hikes were little treacherous with all the snow and slopes. We enjoyed the beauty of the Zion National Park and left the park in the early evening and started our journey to the Byrce Canyon.
Reaching Bryce Canyon before dark was a big relief since after yesterday's drive I didn't want to take the risk. Our hotel in Bryce was grand. Even though it was a Best Western I would say it could give competition to any other 4 star hotel. The lobby had a fire place, an indoor swimming pool which was heated, jacuzzi, the size of room was the biggest I have ever stayed and it was simply great! We enjoyed our stay in the hotel that day and the next morning started to immerse in the beuty of the big hole in the earth - Bryce Canyon. Bryce is simply stunning. You never get tired of seeing the hoodoos and and revel in this marvel of nature. We saw almost all the points of the Bryce Canyon and there when we were just metres away from the Park exit and I pulled my car into the parking of the visitor centre I noticed a park ranger car parked behind me with the lights flashing!! Shit!! Yes, that was my first reaction. Or was it Fcuk? Well, I don't remember. The details about my offense(s) is censored for this blog but trust me it was not a very major offense :-)
Finally, we left Bryce driving within the speed limits for some time and reached Vegas. Yes...Veags! What a contrast from the natural beauty to the glamour and glitz and hmm...natural beauty but of the other kind ;-) We had only one night in Vegas and made the most out of it. Had desi dinner, gambled, freaked out on the strip and finally retired to our suite..yes a suite in one of the hotels on the stip! We were lucky to get an upgrade because the hotel ran out of rooms...hehe...good for us!
Finally, as always good things do come to an end. We headed straight back to Phoenix in record time! It was a short and sweet drive back home and it was good to be home. Adios!
So here goes the trip log for the trip that earned me my first driving ticket in the US. Well, that is a pessimistic start but I actually do not intend to sound negative here because the trip was simply fabulous. Yes, it was and you will come to know why it was so. To start with I was not at all enthusiastic about the trip which we had conceived long ago. The reason behind my not being gung ho about the trip was mainly due to the tough times I was going through. I was not sure as to how would I enjoy on the trip with so many things on my mind. However, I was wrong. The trip helped me to do away with my worries for at least a few days and I came back feeling better and rejuvenated (only to go back to the same mode a few days later ;-)
Enough of history surrounding the trip and now back to the real meat. We started on the Friday before Christmas day and rented a Pontiac G6 coupe with plush leather interiors. It was an amazing car and we zipped past straight to Page. The drive was comfortable and we had our dinner at Page. The drive from Page to the entrance of Zion was a little eerie but I followed a car for most of the time so that we had some company on the dark road. However, soon we were to experience a 15 mile drive which we had and wish never would have to encounter in future. We had to cross the Zion National Park in order to reach our hotel in Springdale, UT. It was already pretty late at night and it was dark and to top it all it was cold and little icy. We were all alone on a undivided curvy road. But, nothing could be done. We never anticipated that it would be such and we headed straight to the hotel. There was nobody except a few deers who gave us a little company on the way and luckily didn't get hurt. But, I would say it was one of the most longest drives I have ever been through. Those 30 mins or so were really an experience :-)
Finally, I would say all is well that ends well. We reached our hotel safely, were greeted by a "Desi" and slept for the night only to see a beautiful, sunny morning the next day. The next morning was simply awesome. We got our national park permit made and had a really heavy but good breakfast, did some shopping in the mart and finally headed to the scenic drive inside the Zion National Park. We were looking forward to trek in the park and so we did. We went to a few hikes but thanks to my Nike Sneakers couldn't take on the real hard hikes since my shoes would not allow me to indulge in such extravagance. I slipped and slipped and slipped over the icy paths and so finally decided to be safe and play safe and only ventured on the "Safe" hikes. But I think my shoes saved us from a lot of trouble later because for us even the "Easy" hikes were little treacherous with all the snow and slopes. We enjoyed the beauty of the Zion National Park and left the park in the early evening and started our journey to the Byrce Canyon.
Reaching Bryce Canyon before dark was a big relief since after yesterday's drive I didn't want to take the risk. Our hotel in Bryce was grand. Even though it was a Best Western I would say it could give competition to any other 4 star hotel. The lobby had a fire place, an indoor swimming pool which was heated, jacuzzi, the size of room was the biggest I have ever stayed and it was simply great! We enjoyed our stay in the hotel that day and the next morning started to immerse in the beuty of the big hole in the earth - Bryce Canyon. Bryce is simply stunning. You never get tired of seeing the hoodoos and and revel in this marvel of nature. We saw almost all the points of the Bryce Canyon and there when we were just metres away from the Park exit and I pulled my car into the parking of the visitor centre I noticed a park ranger car parked behind me with the lights flashing!! Shit!! Yes, that was my first reaction. Or was it Fcuk? Well, I don't remember. The details about my offense(s) is censored for this blog but trust me it was not a very major offense :-)
Finally, we left Bryce driving within the speed limits for some time and reached Vegas. Yes...Veags! What a contrast from the natural beauty to the glamour and glitz and hmm...natural beauty but of the other kind ;-) We had only one night in Vegas and made the most out of it. Had desi dinner, gambled, freaked out on the strip and finally retired to our suite..yes a suite in one of the hotels on the stip! We were lucky to get an upgrade because the hotel ran out of rooms...hehe...good for us!
Finally, as always good things do come to an end. We headed straight back to Phoenix in record time! It was a short and sweet drive back home and it was good to be home. Adios!
Wow! I was reading my previous post and realized how high (or low??) I was. Was it Tequila that day or whiskey? I don't remember actually but it was something. So, what has been going on in my life or in the world since the past few days. I think it would be more interesting to discuss about the world rather than my life as there has not been many interesting things going on in my life. Yeah, this is untill you find someone being fckued interesting, I guess you would. Isn't it?
Actually, at one point I thought of simply penning down the things that went bad, but then I though leave it the list would become too long and the reader would lose interest.
Oh yes, before I forget guys, I got my first driving ticket! It was in Bryce Canyon National Park, Utah when I jumped the stopped sign. Was it only that? Yes. ;-) Gosh! I think I haven't written about the Zion/Bryce trip. How could I do that blunder. It would require s separate post so I wil not write it down here.
Actually, at one point I thought of simply penning down the things that went bad, but then I though leave it the list would become too long and the reader would lose interest.
Oh yes, before I forget guys, I got my first driving ticket! It was in Bryce Canyon National Park, Utah when I jumped the stopped sign. Was it only that? Yes. ;-) Gosh! I think I haven't written about the Zion/Bryce trip. How could I do that blunder. It would require s separate post so I wil not write it down here.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Well, it has been again quite some time. Many new developments in my life, in the world and in the life of people across the globe. Saddam Hussein hanged, Killings in Iraq continue, 3000 US military deaths, Serial killer caught in my hometown - Noida, President Ford died and so did the legendary James Brown, genocide in Darfur continues, new racists attacks in the UK unearthed but still New year welcomed by great cheer by all...
The past few days have been tough. Really tough. With not a few but many disappointments. Today, as I write this blog I don't actually know what to write. I want to write about good things like my vacation during the christmas break but I just can't get into that mood. Why? I don't know the answer myself. Is it a bad timing? Yes, it is. Well, that is a nice excuse. The fact is that maybe its something else that is bad and not the timing? Am I going overboard? Maybe. No. Actually, it seems I am. So, should I change something for good? I tried but I failed. Failed just not for changing things. I am halfway on my journey and am at a point of no return. I can't turn back because that will make me wonder about my past years. However, the road ahead is also very dark. I think I am on a wrong track? Did I choose this track myself or was I destined to be on this track? Both actually. You decide. So, actually the crux is that I am in a middle of nowhere. I am on a wrong track where I cant turn back and I cant move forward because its dark. I need a rescue? There is no rescue. To make matters worse, things more complicated I can't even stop now in the middle of the road. Maybe a few years back, I would have stayed at my current location without turning back or without moving forward. But can I now? I wish I can, but I know I can't.
So, I cant turn back, I can move forward, I cant stay and I cant be rescued.
The past few days have been tough. Really tough. With not a few but many disappointments. Today, as I write this blog I don't actually know what to write. I want to write about good things like my vacation during the christmas break but I just can't get into that mood. Why? I don't know the answer myself. Is it a bad timing? Yes, it is. Well, that is a nice excuse. The fact is that maybe its something else that is bad and not the timing? Am I going overboard? Maybe. No. Actually, it seems I am. So, should I change something for good? I tried but I failed. Failed just not for changing things. I am halfway on my journey and am at a point of no return. I can't turn back because that will make me wonder about my past years. However, the road ahead is also very dark. I think I am on a wrong track? Did I choose this track myself or was I destined to be on this track? Both actually. You decide. So, actually the crux is that I am in a middle of nowhere. I am on a wrong track where I cant turn back and I cant move forward because its dark. I need a rescue? There is no rescue. To make matters worse, things more complicated I can't even stop now in the middle of the road. Maybe a few years back, I would have stayed at my current location without turning back or without moving forward. But can I now? I wish I can, but I know I can't.
So, I cant turn back, I can move forward, I cant stay and I cant be rescued.
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